My heart hurts. I don’t remember the last time I felt this sad. I miss my puppies so much. Their absence is so pronounced right now. This house is oh-so quiet. And very lonely. Hubby is at work. Big kids are at school. Baby is napping. And the house is silent. That NEVER happened. I imagine that I will appreciate the silence someday, probably soon. But for now, it just reminds me of what is missing. Sweet, precious, loyal doggies.
I don’t want to go into detail, because I don’t want to relive this. While writing, or by potentially reading it later.
I know that we did the right thing, for them. But it is hard for us. It will get easier, I know that. Right now, the neighbor’s dog is barking, and it’s making me sad. When I went upstairs to do yoga this morning, I didn’t have my little shadow. My Charlie-boy who always stayed next to me when I did my poses, occasionally interrupting for a little pat. I didn’t hear Godiva downstairs, barking for me, asking me to come back downstairs and keep her company (she couldn’t go up the stairs, and hated when I did and left her alone).
They were members of our family. They will live on in our hearts and memories forever. I hope they left the world knowing how much they were loved, because they were so very, very loved.
stopwhatyouredoingrightnow 