Sad day.

My heart hurts.  I don’t remember the last time I felt this sad.  I miss my puppies so much.   Their absence is so pronounced right now.  This house is oh-so quiet.  And very lonely.  Hubby is at work.  Big kids are at school.  Baby is napping.  And the house is silent.  That NEVER happened.  I imagine that I will appreciate the silence someday, probably soon.  But for now, it just reminds me of what is missing.  Sweet, precious, loyal doggies.

I don’t want to go into detail, because I don’t want to relive this.  While writing, or by potentially reading it later.

I know that we did the right thing, for them.  But it is hard for us.  It will get easier, I know that.  Right now, the neighbor’s dog is barking, and it’s making me sad.  When I went upstairs to do yoga this morning, I didn’t have my little shadow.  My Charlie-boy who always stayed next to me when I did my poses, occasionally interrupting for a little pat.  I didn’t hear Godiva downstairs, barking for me, asking me to come back downstairs and keep her company (she couldn’t go up the stairs, and hated when I did and left her alone).

They were members of our family.  They will live on in our hearts and memories forever.  I hope they left the world knowing how much they were loved, because they were so very, very loved.

 

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