I don’t know how I got here. Honestly, I don’t even know where “here” is. I have no clue who I am. I live in this identity that I don’t fully identify with.
I feel stuck. All I have done in my life is be a mom. I started at 20, and now, 14 years later, I am starting all over again. I thought I was breaking free of my mold, becoming me…Turns out that the only “me” I know is “mom”. Am I here again because it is comfortable, it is what I know? Or is it because I truly want this path? I am unsure of the answer to that. I feel disappointed in myself. I have never given myself the opportunity to grow and discover my potential. Unless by raising amazing kids, I am reaching my potential…? If this sounds confusing, it is.
Dammit. Just dammit.